AUTHOR: Trista Mateer
RELEASES: May 1, 2018; Central Avenue Publishing
GENRE(s): Poetry, LGBT
AGE RANGE: Young Adult
SYNOPSIS: “You will meet people in your lifetime who demand to have poems written about them. It’s not something they say. It’s something about their hands, the shape of their mouths, the way they look walking away from you. Honeybee is an honest take on walking away and still feeling like you were walked away from. It’s about cutting love loose like a kite string and praying the wind has the decency to carry it away from you. It’s an ode to the back and forth, the process of letting something go but not knowing where to put it down. Honeybee is putting it down. It’s small town girls and plane tickets, a taste of tenderness and honey, the bandage on the bee sting. It’s a reminder that you are not defined by the people you walk away from or the people who walk away from you. Consider Honeybee a memoir in verse, or at the very least, a story written by one of today’s most confessional poets.”
Heartbreak is never a linear thing, mostly because when your heart breaks it shatters into a million pieces that you have to piece back together painstakingly. Mending your heart is just messy, and you have to do it any way you possibly can. Honeybee is an extraordinary collection of poetry, detailing the path to closure post-breakup and how that path is never just straightforward but full of U-turns, dead ends, potholes, and burned out GPS.
Mateer writes with anguished ease about losing the person she loved most, trying to grieve the loss of her relationship quietly when her pain is too much just to keep inside.
“Semi-Factual Thoughts On Space
Did you know that when a star implodes,
for a few days, it can be brighter than an entire galaxy?
I still have light in my eyes from the way that you left me;
I still wait for my core to collapse like a black hole
and suck everything into it
when I meet someone else with your name.”
Honeybee might be poetry, but it reads like a novel. From the moment I read the first page, this book was me. I was the person leaving someone even if I didn’t want to. I was the person running away to adventure to compensate for the inability to feel anything. I was the person with my heart exposed for my new lovers to see. This collection is incredible.
“You Were Never Supposed To Be:
a thing to learn from
Poetry is never going to impact two people the same way; logically, I know that. But this collection touched me so profoundly that I feel it crucial to make you understand that this was not merely a book of breakup poems. Mateer confronts her bisexuality here, Mateer doesn’t shy away from the ugliness of the post break up phase. She runs away to find herself and comes back still just as lost. She makes progress and then that progress is undone, and then she makes progress again.
Don’t be fooled into thinking that Honeybee is for everyone. This book is for the bi girls. This book is for the girls in love with their best friends. This book is for the people who have ever felt invisible while they slowly fall apart. This book is for the people who say they want privacy but know they need a stage. Honestly, this book meant so much to me. I don’t want to say a lot about the content of this because it’s something you have to experience but let it be known that this work is beautiful, gut-wrenching, and a total experience from start to finish.
Reading Honeybee took me on a journey, and I highly recommend it.
1 Star – I did not like it. 2 Stars– It has issues but will pass. 3 Stars– It’s just okay. Nothing wrong with it but nothing right with it either. 4 Stars– I enjoyed this. It’s good. 5 Stars– I absolutely loved this!
Thank you to Central Avenue Publishing for providing me with this ARC in exchange for an honest review! And thank you to Trista Mateer for showing me a piece of her soul.
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